John Marzillier worked for thirty-seven years as a clinical psychologist and psychotherapist in various settings including psychiatric hospitals, GP practices, a university clinic and in private practice. He retired in 2006 to become a writer. He has published numerous academic articles as well as novels and poems. He is a Fellow of the British Psychological Society.

AUTHOR'S NOTE

PREFACE

SECTION I: GETTING MY HANDS DIRTY

CHAPTER ONE - Beginnings

CHAPTER TWO - A suitable case for treatment

CHAPTER THREE - Getting my hands dirty

CHAPTER FOUR - How many psychologists does it take to change a light bulb?

CHAPTER FIVE - Fail again. Fail better

CHAPTER SIX - "Whatever happened to flaming June?"

SECTION II: MICROBES IN THE VAST UNIVERSE

CHAPTER SEVEN - Speaking prose

CHAPTER EIGHT - "I think I'm wasting your time"

CHAPTER NINE - Going cognitive

CHAPTER TEN - Microbes in the vast universe

CHAPTER ELEVEN - "The heart has reasons that reason cannot know"

CHAPTER TWELVE - The power of negative thinking

SECTION III: GETTING PERSONAL

CHAPTER THIRTEEN - Crossing the Rubicon

CHAPTER FOURTEEN - Dipping my toe in the water

CHAPTER FIFTEEN - "I'm so grateful for all your help"

CHAPTER SIXTEEN - "I've told you all I know"

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN - Not waving but drowning

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN - Getting personal

SECTION IV: SO IT GOES

CHAPTER NINETEEN - Working under time pressure

CHAPTER TWENTY - Thinking and feeling

CHAPTER TWENTY ONE - "I've been told you're an expert in anxiety management"

CHAPTER TWENTY TWO - Getting too personal

CHAPTER TWENTY THREE - Unanswerable questions

CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR - So it goes

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS