Her father built the world's first H-bomb. At five, Dr. Cynthia Miller began the search to discover why people hate and kill each other.

Dr. Miller is the daughter of the chief engineer who constructed hundreds of American bombs. Her childhood, riddled with radiation, bomb-dropping, and fear, was one of seclusion, her voice squelched in a top-secret household. Nuclear radiation impregnated every cell; pain and trauma festered.

On the flip side, she reveals incredible adventures into the unknown, global travels, a brush with death, and flights with the angels. The call of the wilds pulled her to become one of the first female white-water river guides. A spontaneous kundalini awakening opened her vision to see inside bodies, cells, and DNA. Sitting in a tiny cave in India she obtained nirvana, only to discover this pinnacle of spiritual seeking was not what she wanted. She innately knew true joy would only be found in union with the body, not by escaping it

With unflinching honesty, she claims the voice of her truth, a galvanizing wake-up call to take back personal power. The conflict between pain, multidimensional bliss, and hidden seeing led to an astonishing breakthrough for us to evolve into a new paradigm based on love.

An epic life-changing memoir of pain and trauma explodes into exquisite internal delight, happiness, and a new reality.