"A beautifully devastating memoir ... A remarkable odyssey of learning to 'live fully in the shadow of death.'" - Publishers Weekly (Editor's Pick)Winner, GOLD MEDAL, Global Book Awards

When Tony Stewart and his wife Lynn learned that she had incurable cancer, they sat together at their kitchen table-holding hands, cherishing their time, and wondering how to make the most of what remained. Thus began their extraordinary journey of courage, heartbreak and enduring love, as they navigated the twists and turns of Lynn's treatment while learning to live fully in the shadow of death.

Carrying the Tiger chronicles their final years together with unflinching honesty and deep tenderness. Through Tony's eyes and excerpts from his journal, we witness the intimate moments that matter most: difficult decisions made with courage and hope; love, laughter and dancing at midnight; and the honor and privilege of being present for Lynn's final breath.

But Carrying the Tiger doesn't end with Lynn's passing. It continues into the wilderness of grief: the shattering disorientation, the guilt, the slow and uncertain path toward life, as Tony learns to experience joy again without diminishing his love for Lynn.

If you're caring for someone with terminal illness, this book illuminates the road ahead. If you're navigating the aftermath of loss, it offers the comfort of shared experience. And if you're simply wondering how to keep living when everything has changed, these pages prove that even in darkness, light can break through.

This is the book Tony wished he'd had. It will move you, comfort you, and stay with you long after the last page.
GOLD MEDALIST at the Global Book Awards
Finalist for the AmericanBookFest Best Book Award
Finalist for the Indie Author Project/Library Journal best memoir award
Semi-Finalist for the BookLife Prize (a perfect 10.0 in all categories)

"A beautiful and very human love story which breathes an extraordinary generosity of spirit." - David Newman, author of Talking with Doctors

"A masterclass in facing life's hardest moments with grace." - IndieReader

"Captures emotions and experiences that will be familiar to anyone who's stood by a loved one facing a cancer diagnosis. But here, too, are quiet moments of joy and triumph; this is a work that will strengthen all who read it." - Khalid Dar, MD, Oncologist, Mount Sinai Morningside

"A remarkable odyssey of learning to 'live fully in the shadow of death.'" - Publishers Weekly (Editor's Pick)

"Heart-wrenching... beautifully describes the couple's unique relationship" - Kirkus Reviews

"Tony Stewart writes with unflinching honesty about love and loss at the deepest level. The book is both devastating and hopeful as we accompany Tony through his wife's diagnosis and illness and his subsequent discovery that joy and grief can live hand in hand." - Jessica Fein, author of Breath Taking: A Memoir of Family, Dreams, and Broken Genes